mm, had my first legitimate holy communion yesterday, and it happened to be the first for the year. I thought about what was written in the bulletin about what we should seek as we partake of this holy communion, it said; a renewed commitment to the Lord Jesus,
a renewed consciousness to abide in the Lord Jesus, and
a renewed sense of calling to walk worthy of the Lord in 2010.

I remember how Pastor Chris mentioned during one of the YPG discussion groups how we should really partake of holy communion in a very special way or something like that. but I do remember he said "woe to me the day I treat holy communion as just another thing/ritual". I really liked the songs that we sang as we partook of the bread and cup yesterday. It was hymn 201 - Grace greater than all our sin. In verse three it said "Dark is the stain that we cannot hide. What can avail to wash it away? Look there is flowing a crimson tide. Whiter than snow you may be today!" I thought, how true. Just as Pastor Chris mentioned when he talked about covenants, what binds us to the Lord is the covenant He made with us through His blood. and yet people nowadays disregard covenants as if it were nothing; an example? marriage. apparrently divorce rates are 50%, which means for every marriage made, a divorce paper is signed. sigh.

Well afterwards we went to celebrate tim's 18th. was fun! beaching it, fishing, bbq-ing, rugby-ing. hey, it was great! :p who says you need booze to celebrate an 18th birthday? definitely not me!
I just wish him all the best in this 18th year, and pray that he continue to stay faithful to the Lord, and hope he does well as he leads the congregation in piano this sunday! (:

Last but not least, today. I was all excited and scared because I was finally starting my first piano lesson today, even though my new teacher is really strict and scary-looking. But I got there, and nobody was home..or at least it looked like nobody was inside. My mum and I knocked..and waited..and knocked..and waited. after an hour and fifteen minutes of waiting we decided to go home =/

At the moment I'm really confused with everything that's happening. Apparrently I have a job, but my boss hasn't made an attempt to contact me as of the work trial. Apparrently I have piano lessons, but my teacher isn't there when I go to her house, just like she forgot I was supposed to meet up with her 2 weeks ago until i came to her house on the night and knocked on the door. I also get my license in 2 weeks, but my car's getting repaired and my mum estimates it'll take 3 weeks or so before it's done. Hmm, what to do..what to feel? am I frustrated? yeah a bit. angry? tempted to. curious/confused? very.

But I'm really trying to learn this aspect of "waiting on the Lord" that we're exploring this month and the next. in times like this, I have to learn to literally wait on the Lord. to trust in Him. depend on Him. He is a faithful and loving God after all; even if His greater plan is for me to neither get the job, the piano lessons nor the car in time. it's not easy. I'm tempted to feel frustrated and annoyed, but i'm trying my best to suppress. I hope I really learn to wait on Him. I hope I don't end up being impatient and trying to take things into my own hands - it'll only end up worse. I must instead clothe myself with humility and patience, bringing my concerns to Him and believing He will do what is right in His eyes, rather than having an impatiently complaining spirit.

If anyone starts to see me do anything otherwise, please rebuke me.
Thanks (: